Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Suddenly feel like blogging after reading a few of my frens' blogs.
suddenly realised that we have all changed;
that we all have new frens;
that sometimes, we forget abt our old frens and only talk abt the new;
that sometimes, we completely forget abt the relationships we had in the past.
after dumping a whole lot of stuff in my room,
I realised that I didn't just dump away loads of material stuff,
but also memorable things that I sorta kept during pri sch for reminiscising.(sp?)
after dumping all these stuff,
I realised that I didn't just get rid of all the memories that keep coming into my head and make me all emo again.
I realised that I can walk into my room and feel that it is a place where I can hide from the world and dream about anything happening, that it is MY world;
unlike the early this year where whenever I go to my room I'll think of all the memories in pri sch and dig out all the stuff and think of stupid things that we did and whatever.
whenever I entered my room before last week,
I'll be filled with this mindset like "this is where I cried every night"; "this is where I almost killed myself" blah blah blah.
before dumping all those stuff, my room was like a very emo place where I could cry and whatever. but after that, I realised that the world is a better place after all, and I have to let go of the past before I can cope with the future.
suddenly, I realised that we were all too childish in pri sch -
we took loads of stuff for granted;
we quarrel over some stupid boy;
we do stupid stuff that only we would do.....
now that we've grown up, I only have one questions to ask:
can't we be what we were in the past?
why must we be "acting our age" when actually in your heart, you're actually a kid?
if that is true, won't many friendships be sabotaged by this so called "act"?
and if that is true,
won't our whole lives be a complete lie?
won't it mean that we can't trust anyone at all?
that friendships can never be "forever"?
that at the end of our lives, all we are are just empty vessels with no memories?
no.
I don't want that to happen.
at the end of my life,
I want to say that I have lived my life to the fullest,
that I still have friends from a long long time in the past,
that I have helped ppl, be it psychological, phisical or financial,
that I still treasure everything I have, had, and could have,
and I do not regret anything I did in my life for I have learnt sth from it.
so take a bit of time and think:
what do you want to be when you're lying on your deathbed;
what you can do to achieve those thoughts;
what can you do to all the friends that you have to show that you will never forget them even though you have lost contact or whatever.
my friends have played a big part in my life,
be it helping me in my sch work;
helping me when I'm in a "financial difficulty";
when I just need someone to talk to about everything about anything;
or simply, just being with me whenever I need them.
on this note, I would like to tell anyone who reads this post, have read this post, or had anything to do with me that
I love you as my friend and I will never forget you even if we do not speak to each other, have lost contact or for any other stupid reason that make us not able to be together. You played/play a part in my destiny - paving my way and making me grow up, turning me the way I am. All my friends have made me who I am, and I hope that no matter what happens, we will remember each other, despite all the misunderstandings and hatred that we had. The day we graduated/will graduate, might be the last day that our friendship actually stands strong, and thus, I hope that we will all remember each other till the day we are on our deathbeds and thinking I have lived my life to the fullest, accomplished what I had hoped to do, and I have friends that think about me constantly throughout this life that I had.
- Christine aka Chris aka Sophia Earthas aka Eartha aka loveMUSIC aka thismusicobsession aka kristine_703@hotmail.com aka your friend forever.
sry this post is so emo. just that some stuff happened in my life and I dun know how else to get rid of all these emo-ness in a way that no one would be harmed. expect more of such emo posts from me.
suddenly realised that we have all changed;
that we all have new frens;
that sometimes, we forget abt our old frens and only talk abt the new;
that sometimes, we completely forget abt the relationships we had in the past.
after dumping a whole lot of stuff in my room,
I realised that I didn't just dump away loads of material stuff,
but also memorable things that I sorta kept during pri sch for reminiscising.(sp?)
after dumping all these stuff,
I realised that I didn't just get rid of all the memories that keep coming into my head and make me all emo again.
I realised that I can walk into my room and feel that it is a place where I can hide from the world and dream about anything happening, that it is MY world;
unlike the early this year where whenever I go to my room I'll think of all the memories in pri sch and dig out all the stuff and think of stupid things that we did and whatever.
whenever I entered my room before last week,
I'll be filled with this mindset like "this is where I cried every night"; "this is where I almost killed myself" blah blah blah.
before dumping all those stuff, my room was like a very emo place where I could cry and whatever. but after that, I realised that the world is a better place after all, and I have to let go of the past before I can cope with the future.
suddenly, I realised that we were all too childish in pri sch -
we took loads of stuff for granted;
we quarrel over some stupid boy;
we do stupid stuff that only we would do.....
now that we've grown up, I only have one questions to ask:
can't we be what we were in the past?
why must we be "acting our age" when actually in your heart, you're actually a kid?
if that is true, won't many friendships be sabotaged by this so called "act"?
and if that is true,
won't our whole lives be a complete lie?
won't it mean that we can't trust anyone at all?
that friendships can never be "forever"?
that at the end of our lives, all we are are just empty vessels with no memories?
no.
I don't want that to happen.
at the end of my life,
I want to say that I have lived my life to the fullest,
that I still have friends from a long long time in the past,
that I have helped ppl, be it psychological, phisical or financial,
that I still treasure everything I have, had, and could have,
and I do not regret anything I did in my life for I have learnt sth from it.
so take a bit of time and think:
what do you want to be when you're lying on your deathbed;
what you can do to achieve those thoughts;
what can you do to all the friends that you have to show that you will never forget them even though you have lost contact or whatever.
my friends have played a big part in my life,
be it helping me in my sch work;
helping me when I'm in a "financial difficulty";
when I just need someone to talk to about everything about anything;
or simply, just being with me whenever I need them.
on this note, I would like to tell anyone who reads this post, have read this post, or had anything to do with me that
I love you as my friend and I will never forget you even if we do not speak to each other, have lost contact or for any other stupid reason that make us not able to be together. You played/play a part in my destiny - paving my way and making me grow up, turning me the way I am. All my friends have made me who I am, and I hope that no matter what happens, we will remember each other, despite all the misunderstandings and hatred that we had. The day we graduated/will graduate, might be the last day that our friendship actually stands strong, and thus, I hope that we will all remember each other till the day we are on our deathbeds and thinking I have lived my life to the fullest, accomplished what I had hoped to do, and I have friends that think about me constantly throughout this life that I had.
- Christine aka Chris aka Sophia Earthas aka Eartha aka loveMUSIC aka thismusicobsession aka kristine_703@hotmail.com aka your friend forever.
sry this post is so emo. just that some stuff happened in my life and I dun know how else to get rid of all these emo-ness in a way that no one would be harmed. expect more of such emo posts from me.
what we could have been, 4:19 PM.
