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Friday, November 30, 2007

been thinking of the future these days.
i don't know why.
the way things have been going on at home,
i don't think any of my plans will work out.

i probably won't have my parents' support for going to a university in US.
nor will i have the finances.
unless i get a scholarship or sth.

and i dunno why,
these days i just get really really emo at night.
like i'll just cry and cry and cry until i fall asleep.
sometimes it's a while;
sometimes it'll be an hour or so.

i just don't know what my parents want of me.
i do stuff they ask me to: clean up, look after sibs/cuz, do hw, etc.
i do stuff they don't ask me to: wash my own dishes, sorting out my stuff, etc.
but i still get scolded.
they say it's cos i didn't do it well.
but i tried.
i really did.
sometimes i really tried very hard.
but they just don't see it.
even if they don't see my efforts,
i should have at least improved abit.
but no, they just go off nagging at every single thing.

it's like everything i do is wrong.
while everything my sis does is right.

it's not my fault that she can entertaint you all with the piano.
i mean, she learns the piano; i don't.
what do you expect?
then you complain that it's my own fault that i quit piano.
yes, i know that, but you agreed that my hw load was too much.
and it's not like i don't want to learn any other instruments.
you know fairly well that i really want to learn the bass.
but you go off nagging that it's too expensive.
i mean, it's only $600+; the piano's $3000+.
why didn't you say that it's too expensive when you bought the piano?

and i know grandma's chemo costs alot.
and we can barely afford it,
but you shouldn't vent everything at me.

it's just really really unfair.
why must i always be the nice, understanding, sensible, responsible, always-giving-in-to-ppl person?
why can't i fight for what i want at all?
everytime i want sth that my siblings want also,
i have to give it to them.
and when i'm pissed abt that,
you just say "don't be like that, next time i buy for you sth else"
but you never did that.
and i don't think you ever will.

and the way that you care abt my siblings when they fall sick,
why don't you treat me in the same way?
don't say that you do.
cos you didn't.
and it's always like that.
last night when my bro had this cough which lasted for a minute or so in the middle of the night,
you did everything to make him feel better.
you didn't even want to get panadol for me when i had this headache in the middle of the night and couldn't even get out of bed.

it's just really really unfair.
and i don't think you'll ever read this.
you just don't care abt me enough...

i want to know that i am loved by you too.
that is, if you even loved me...

what we could have been, 8:23 PM.

been thinking of the future these days.
i don't know why.
the way things have been going on at home,
i don't think any of my plans will work out.

i probably won't have my parents' support for going to a university in US.
nor will i have the finances.
unless i get a scholarship or sth.

and i dunno why,
these days i just get really really emo at night.
like i'll just cry and cry and cry until i fall asleep.
sometimes it's a while;
sometimes it'll be an hour or so.

i just don't know what my parents want of me.
i do stuff they ask me to: clean up, look after sibs/cuz, do hw, etc.
i do stuff they don't ask me to: wash my own dishes, sorting out my stuff, etc.
but i still get scolded.
they say it's cos i didn't do it well.
but i tried.
i really did.
sometimes i really tried very hard.
but they just don't see it.
even if they don't see my efforts,
i should have at least improved abit.
but no, they just go off nagging at every single thing.

it's like everything i do is wrong.
while everything my sis does is right.

it's not my fault that she can entertaint you all with the piano.
i mean, she learns the piano; i don't.
what do you expect?
then you complain that it's my own fault that i quit piano.
yes, i know that, but you agreed that my hw load was too much.
and it's not like i don't want to learn any other instruments.
you know fairly well that i really want to learn the bass.
but you go off nagging that it's too expensive.
i mean, it's only $600+; the piano's $3000+.
why didn't you say that it's too expensive when you bought the piano?

and i know grandma's chemo costs alot.
and we can barely afford it,
but you shouldn't vent everything at me.

it's just really really unfair.
why must i always be the nice, understanding, sensible, responsible, always-giving-in-to-ppl person?
why can't i fight for what i want at all?
everytime i want sth that my siblings want also,
i have to give it to them.
and when i'm pissed abt that,
you just say "don't be like that, next time i buy for you sth else"
but you never did that.
and i don't think you ever will.

and the way that you care abt my siblings when they fall sick,
why don't you treat me in the same way?
don't say that you do.
cos you didn't.
and it's always like that.
last night when my bro had this cough which lasted for a minute or so in the middle of the night,
you did everything to make him feel better.
you didn't even want to get panadol for me when i had this headache in the middle of the night and couldn't even get out of bed.

it's just really really unfair.
and i don't think you'll ever read this.
you just don't care abt me enough...

i want to know that i am loved by you too.
that is, if you even loved me...

what we could have been, 8:23 PM.
Thursday, November 29, 2007

i feel like i'm drowning in an ocean.

lol.
i just had to post that.
i dunno why.
and i think it's an emotional ocean.

somebody come and take me away~

what we could have been, 8:10 PM.

i feel like i'm drowning in an ocean.

lol.
i just had to post that.
i dunno why.
and i think it's an emotional ocean.

somebody come and take me away~

what we could have been, 8:10 PM.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007

I am 60% retarded D:

1. [x]You have choked on your water before. (Always...)
2. [x] You have tripped down the stairs before. (yea. and i almost died.)
3. [ ] You have walked into a door.
4. [x] You have pushed a door the wrong way. (the mcdonald's door that opens both ways despite the push/pull signs)
5. [x] You have walked into a wall. (i was walking backwards/reading/looking somewhere else)
6. [x] You have fallen going [[UP]] the stairs... (escalator counted? cos i almost died when i fell forward last thurs)
7. [x] You have jumped off something. (i jumped off a wall :D)
8. [x] You have been shocked. (=.=)
9. [x] You have put metal/aluminum in the microwave/oven. (my baking tray is metal.)
10. [ ] Right after a commercial comes on you have forgotten the show you were watching.
11. [x] You have forgotten something that someone said. (who hasn't?)
12. [ ] Your friends/family call you blond
13. [ ] You barely ever understand stuff/ jokes, or it takes a long time to figure them out.
14. [ ]You have been bleeding and not even noticed it. (i got extra sensitive skin. the skin kena scratch already itch like siao.)
15. [ ] You've worn something backwards/ in side out the whole day without knowing.
16. [x] You have stuck a knife in a toaster before. (to get the bread out. cos it got stuck in the toaster)
17. [x] You have played with fire. (MID-AUTUMN:D)
18. [x] You have burned something because you forgot about it. (my scrambled eggs D:)
19. [ ] You've burned yourself on a flat iron/curling iron.
20. [ ] You had to write this down or use a calculator or use your fingers to figure out your answer. (Huh?)

add up your points after you finishthis multiply by 5
And Repost as: " I'm _____% retarded

what we could have been, 10:35 PM.

I am 60% retarded D:

1. [x]You have choked on your water before. (Always...)
2. [x] You have tripped down the stairs before. (yea. and i almost died.)
3. [ ] You have walked into a door.
4. [x] You have pushed a door the wrong way. (the mcdonald's door that opens both ways despite the push/pull signs)
5. [x] You have walked into a wall. (i was walking backwards/reading/looking somewhere else)
6. [x] You have fallen going [[UP]] the stairs... (escalator counted? cos i almost died when i fell forward last thurs)
7. [x] You have jumped off something. (i jumped off a wall :D)
8. [x] You have been shocked. (=.=)
9. [x] You have put metal/aluminum in the microwave/oven. (my baking tray is metal.)
10. [ ] Right after a commercial comes on you have forgotten the show you were watching.
11. [x] You have forgotten something that someone said. (who hasn't?)
12. [ ] Your friends/family call you blond
13. [ ] You barely ever understand stuff/ jokes, or it takes a long time to figure them out.
14. [ ]You have been bleeding and not even noticed it. (i got extra sensitive skin. the skin kena scratch already itch like siao.)
15. [ ] You've worn something backwards/ in side out the whole day without knowing.
16. [x] You have stuck a knife in a toaster before. (to get the bread out. cos it got stuck in the toaster)
17. [x] You have played with fire. (MID-AUTUMN:D)
18. [x] You have burned something because you forgot about it. (my scrambled eggs D:)
19. [ ] You've burned yourself on a flat iron/curling iron.
20. [ ] You had to write this down or use a calculator or use your fingers to figure out your answer. (Huh?)

add up your points after you finishthis multiply by 5
And Repost as: " I'm _____% retarded

what we could have been, 10:35 PM.

Did 2 quizzes cos of boredom. ripped off jiamin's blog :X

-QUIZ 1-


Instructions
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with; I have been tagged!

Favourites
Favourite Color: Black;Pink;Grey;Red
Favourite Food: Pizza :D
Favourite Movie: Harry Potter; Transformers; and alot alot more, but i suddenly can't rmb what they are D:
Favourite Sport: Roller Blading; Ice Skating; Bowling; Netball :D
Favourite Day of the Week: Saturday! cos it's church day :DD
Favourite Season: Winter :)
Favourite Ice Cream: Chocolate; Lemon

Currents
Current Mood: undescribable
Current Clothes: comfort clothes :)
Current Desktop: Compaq DD:
Current Time: 10.08pm
Current Surroundings:Computer room;sis's study room;the room linked to the master bedroom
Current Annoyances: Financial Crisis
Current Thoughts: i am so broke; i want that linkin park & that MCR limited edition CDs; I want to repaint my room; UNIVERSITY FEES ARE SO DAMN EX; i wanna go USA.

Firsts
First Best Friend: Pri 1 :) Pearl (not cresmic one) and Hui Yee (not so close now D:)
First Crush: not telling :D
First Movie: some disney movie. Lion King or Beauty & The Beast. i dunno. maybe it's some other movie.
First Lie: I only remember the second lie: "I didn't lie!"
First Music: dunno. probably some kiddy song.

Lasts
Last Drink: Plain Water
Last Car Ride: Dad's car
Last Crush: not telling either :D
Last Phone Call: Vivien (6A'06)
Last CD Played: FOB, From Under The Cork Tree

Have you evers?
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: Yes.
Have you ever broken the law : Yes. I jay-walk; I insult ppl; I assault ppl...
Have you ever been arrested?: No :D
Have you ever been on TV: No
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: No

Random 5 things you are good at:
1. Remembering lyrics when i'm supposed to revise for exams
(a result of listening to my ipod when i'm revising)
2. Bullying Amanda and Pearl XD
3. Being retarded at times.
4. Sms-ing too much
5. Arguing

4 things you've done today:
1. Eat
2. Watch Tv
3. Listen to music
4. Use com

3 things you can hear right now:
1. MCR (on itunes)
2. me typing
3. the tv making inaudible noises

5 People to tag:
Pearl, Vivien, Valerie, ZhenTing, You :D


-END OF QUIZ 1-












-QUIZ 2-


Pass this quiz to 10 people.
#1. Amanda
#2. Vivien
#3. Zhenting
#4. Pearl
#5. XL
#6. Jin Zhi
#7. Amos
#8. Valerie
#9. JiaMin
#10. Kimberly (jnr)

Who is 6 having a relationship with?
(JinZhi) LMFAO-LOL-ROFL do you really want me to answer that? *smirks*

Is 9 a female or a male?
(JiaMin) Female

If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
(Amos & Kimberly) maybe. if Amos stops being such a flirt, and if they actually knew each other (cos Amos refuses to socialize with 6A'07 XD)

What is 2 studying?
(Vivien) I dunno. whatever they study at nanhua I guess.

When was the last time you had a chat with 3?
(Zhenting) I dunno :X

What kind of music does 8 like?
(Valerie) I ACTUALLY KNOW THE ANSWER TO THIS QUESTION! lol. fahrenheit, lollipop, etc. in short, any music that i will not listen to that is chinese XD

Does 2 have any siblings?
(Vivien) Yes.

Will you woo 3?
(Zhenting) no.

How about 7?
(Amos) errm. i prefer not to answer this question :D

Is 4 single?
(Pearl) rofl. i dun wanna answer this question.

What's the surname of 5?
(XL) Lee

What's the hobby of 4?
(Pearl) Blasting her Ipod; Using the laptop; Watching TV. i dunno XD

5 and 9 get along well?
(XL & JiaMin) They don't know each other XD

Where is 2 studying at?
(Vivien) Nan Hua High School

Say something casual about 1
(Amanda) Sacarstic. And the perfect partner for a guy in my CG. too bad amanda's getting married...

Have you tried developing feelings for 8?
(Valerie) no. we have platonic friendship.

Where does 9 live?
(JiaMin) PasirRis :D

What colour does 4 like?
(Pearl) Red; Black; Green; I dunno what else :X

Are 5 and 1 best friends?
(Amanda & XL) They don't even know each other XDXD

does 7 like 2?
(Amos & Vivien) OMFG-ROFL-LOL-LMFAO i dunno, since amos is such a flirt. but i know vivien doesn't like amos XD

How did you get to know 2?
(Vivien) Greenwood Primary School :D


-END OF QUIZ 2-


i love the patron saint of liars and fakes by fall out boy

what we could have been, 9:56 PM.

Did 2 quizzes cos of boredom. ripped off jiamin's blog :X

-QUIZ 1-


Instructions
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with; I have been tagged!

Favourites
Favourite Color: Black;Pink;Grey;Red
Favourite Food: Pizza :D
Favourite Movie: Harry Potter; Transformers; and alot alot more, but i suddenly can't rmb what they are D:
Favourite Sport: Roller Blading; Ice Skating; Bowling; Netball :D
Favourite Day of the Week: Saturday! cos it's church day :DD
Favourite Season: Winter :)
Favourite Ice Cream: Chocolate; Lemon

Currents
Current Mood: undescribable
Current Clothes: comfort clothes :)
Current Desktop: Compaq DD:
Current Time: 10.08pm
Current Surroundings:Computer room;sis's study room;the room linked to the master bedroom
Current Annoyances: Financial Crisis
Current Thoughts: i am so broke; i want that linkin park & that MCR limited edition CDs; I want to repaint my room; UNIVERSITY FEES ARE SO DAMN EX; i wanna go USA.

Firsts
First Best Friend: Pri 1 :) Pearl (not cresmic one) and Hui Yee (not so close now D:)
First Crush: not telling :D
First Movie: some disney movie. Lion King or Beauty & The Beast. i dunno. maybe it's some other movie.
First Lie: I only remember the second lie: "I didn't lie!"
First Music: dunno. probably some kiddy song.

Lasts
Last Drink: Plain Water
Last Car Ride: Dad's car
Last Crush: not telling either :D
Last Phone Call: Vivien (6A'06)
Last CD Played: FOB, From Under The Cork Tree

Have you evers?
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: Yes.
Have you ever broken the law : Yes. I jay-walk; I insult ppl; I assault ppl...
Have you ever been arrested?: No :D
Have you ever been on TV: No
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: No

Random 5 things you are good at:
1. Remembering lyrics when i'm supposed to revise for exams
(a result of listening to my ipod when i'm revising)
2. Bullying Amanda and Pearl XD
3. Being retarded at times.
4. Sms-ing too much
5. Arguing

4 things you've done today:
1. Eat
2. Watch Tv
3. Listen to music
4. Use com

3 things you can hear right now:
1. MCR (on itunes)
2. me typing
3. the tv making inaudible noises

5 People to tag:
Pearl, Vivien, Valerie, ZhenTing, You :D


-END OF QUIZ 1-












-QUIZ 2-


Pass this quiz to 10 people.
#1. Amanda
#2. Vivien
#3. Zhenting
#4. Pearl
#5. XL
#6. Jin Zhi
#7. Amos
#8. Valerie
#9. JiaMin
#10. Kimberly (jnr)

Who is 6 having a relationship with?
(JinZhi) LMFAO-LOL-ROFL do you really want me to answer that? *smirks*

Is 9 a female or a male?
(JiaMin) Female

If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
(Amos & Kimberly) maybe. if Amos stops being such a flirt, and if they actually knew each other (cos Amos refuses to socialize with 6A'07 XD)

What is 2 studying?
(Vivien) I dunno. whatever they study at nanhua I guess.

When was the last time you had a chat with 3?
(Zhenting) I dunno :X

What kind of music does 8 like?
(Valerie) I ACTUALLY KNOW THE ANSWER TO THIS QUESTION! lol. fahrenheit, lollipop, etc. in short, any music that i will not listen to that is chinese XD

Does 2 have any siblings?
(Vivien) Yes.

Will you woo 3?
(Zhenting) no.

How about 7?
(Amos) errm. i prefer not to answer this question :D

Is 4 single?
(Pearl) rofl. i dun wanna answer this question.

What's the surname of 5?
(XL) Lee

What's the hobby of 4?
(Pearl) Blasting her Ipod; Using the laptop; Watching TV. i dunno XD

5 and 9 get along well?
(XL & JiaMin) They don't know each other XD

Where is 2 studying at?
(Vivien) Nan Hua High School

Say something casual about 1
(Amanda) Sacarstic. And the perfect partner for a guy in my CG. too bad amanda's getting married...

Have you tried developing feelings for 8?
(Valerie) no. we have platonic friendship.

Where does 9 live?
(JiaMin) PasirRis :D

What colour does 4 like?
(Pearl) Red; Black; Green; I dunno what else :X

Are 5 and 1 best friends?
(Amanda & XL) They don't even know each other XDXD

does 7 like 2?
(Amos & Vivien) OMFG-ROFL-LOL-LMFAO i dunno, since amos is such a flirt. but i know vivien doesn't like amos XD

How did you get to know 2?
(Vivien) Greenwood Primary School :D


-END OF QUIZ 2-


i love the patron saint of liars and fakes by fall out boy

what we could have been, 9:56 PM.

i just calculated that if i ever go to usa to study after graduating from dunman,
i'll spend abt S$400,000 on school fees, meals and entertainment.
which means the actual amt will be higher cos i still have to pay rent and stuff.
so i think that's abt bye bye to usa for now.
damnit.

what we could have been, 5:51 PM.

i just calculated that if i ever go to usa to study after graduating from dunman,
i'll spend abt S$400,000 on school fees, meals and entertainment.
which means the actual amt will be higher cos i still have to pay rent and stuff.
so i think that's abt bye bye to usa for now.
damnit.

what we could have been, 5:51 PM.
Monday, November 26, 2007

i think i haven't post for a very long time.
and i realise that most of the time when i post it's because i'm emo-ing over something.
so tadaah.
here i am emo-ing over something.
but this time i don't know what i'm emo-ing over.
it's like a i-feel-like-i-want-to-kill-myself-but-i-don't-know-why feeling
lol.
i think i'm weird.
currently emo-ing with can't take it by all american rejects.

what we could have been, 8:28 PM.

i think i haven't post for a very long time.
and i realise that most of the time when i post it's because i'm emo-ing over something.
so tadaah.
here i am emo-ing over something.
but this time i don't know what i'm emo-ing over.
it's like a i-feel-like-i-want-to-kill-myself-but-i-don't-know-why feeling
lol.
i think i'm weird.
currently emo-ing with can't take it by all american rejects.

what we could have been, 8:28 PM.
Thursday, November 22, 2007

today was supposed to be HAPPY.
we had a little gathering;
we watched enchanted;
and we had lotsa fun.
but the whole thing was ruined by one single action.
and it's not a bad kind of action either.
it was good; maybe not to me, but to others...

was there no other way to pacify her?
must you really give her that poster?
did you know how much effort i put in to get it?
how much money?
yes. you knew. but you forgot.
and damn you for that.

gah.
so much for friends forever and siblings for life.
i guess junior's happiness is more important.
well, thank you for showing me all these are just fantasy.
and reality is harsh.
i hate you.

i guess it's an after-effect of "enchanted".
reality vs fantasy.
damn nice movie.
4/5, cos it's like those movies that you'll probably watch once only.
but i'm still getting the dvd.
to watch on boring days.

and the PSLE results were okay.
last year was much better though.
sry juniors.
but that's how i feel.

and that 294 kid is SMART.
and gratz to amanda's junior for getting 2nd.

yep.
and abt the 6a chalet,
we might not have it afterall.
too bad then.
you guys didn't reply me.

and to the person who didn't appreciate the gift,
dun regret it.
it's most probably the last gift i'll ever give you...

and cheers to amanda for reading the previous post.
i love you too :)

what we could have been, 7:56 PM.

today was supposed to be HAPPY.
we had a little gathering;
we watched enchanted;
and we had lotsa fun.
but the whole thing was ruined by one single action.
and it's not a bad kind of action either.
it was good; maybe not to me, but to others...

was there no other way to pacify her?
must you really give her that poster?
did you know how much effort i put in to get it?
how much money?
yes. you knew. but you forgot.
and damn you for that.

gah.
so much for friends forever and siblings for life.
i guess junior's happiness is more important.
well, thank you for showing me all these are just fantasy.
and reality is harsh.
i hate you.

i guess it's an after-effect of "enchanted".
reality vs fantasy.
damn nice movie.
4/5, cos it's like those movies that you'll probably watch once only.
but i'm still getting the dvd.
to watch on boring days.

and the PSLE results were okay.
last year was much better though.
sry juniors.
but that's how i feel.

and that 294 kid is SMART.
and gratz to amanda's junior for getting 2nd.

yep.
and abt the 6a chalet,
we might not have it afterall.
too bad then.
you guys didn't reply me.

and to the person who didn't appreciate the gift,
dun regret it.
it's most probably the last gift i'll ever give you...

and cheers to amanda for reading the previous post.
i love you too :)

what we could have been, 7:56 PM.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007

gah.
i dunno why but i feel so left out again.
like we're supposed to be a SQUAD.
but in the end you leave out some ppl.
maybe cos you dun like them;
or maybe they just aren't like you and you can't change them.

everyone is equal.
Jesus said love your neighbour as yourself
so why must we exclude ppl?
we're squadmates.
we're more than neighbours.
we're friends,
or even better,
we're a family.

but you guys have forgotten that.

we're all humans.
we make mistakes.
no one can be all RIGHT and no WRONG except God.
and we aren't God.
and we aren't the same.
SURE.
you guys can be much better than me in FA and stuff.
but these are external skills.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ARE BETTER?
I can revise and improve myself can't I?
SO WHAT IF I CAN'T ABSORB EVERYTHING SGT SAYS?
at least i rmb those that I absorb longer.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT STUFF AND I DON'T?
everyone has their good points. you have yours and i have mine.

we're different human beings.

WHY SHOULD I GET SCOLDED FOR STUFF I DIDN'T DO?
i didn't say i'll not revise my FA. i didn't say i'll not do my best on the comp day.
you guys can't make me do everything.
so what if i'm the 2nd last important person on the team?
i still have a say in things.

but you guys just don't want to hear me.

i seriously hate you guys now.
people aren't always what you think they are.
i'm not always the quiet girl who does stuff slowly and imperfectly.
i'm just not cut-out for FA.
i'm not all classical music cos i was in choir while you guys were in the "cool" ccas.
so what if you were in "cool" ccas?
you still ended up in SJ the so called "loser" cca in dhs didn't ya?

i can only take so much.
even the most patient person will have anger outbreaks too.
now is my cry for you guys to shut the fuck up and look at what other ppl can do and you can't.

what we could have been, 9:06 PM.

gah.
i dunno why but i feel so left out again.
like we're supposed to be a SQUAD.
but in the end you leave out some ppl.
maybe cos you dun like them;
or maybe they just aren't like you and you can't change them.

everyone is equal.
Jesus said love your neighbour as yourself
so why must we exclude ppl?
we're squadmates.
we're more than neighbours.
we're friends,
or even better,
we're a family.

but you guys have forgotten that.

we're all humans.
we make mistakes.
no one can be all RIGHT and no WRONG except God.
and we aren't God.
and we aren't the same.
SURE.
you guys can be much better than me in FA and stuff.
but these are external skills.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ARE BETTER?
I can revise and improve myself can't I?
SO WHAT IF I CAN'T ABSORB EVERYTHING SGT SAYS?
at least i rmb those that I absorb longer.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT STUFF AND I DON'T?
everyone has their good points. you have yours and i have mine.

we're different human beings.

WHY SHOULD I GET SCOLDED FOR STUFF I DIDN'T DO?
i didn't say i'll not revise my FA. i didn't say i'll not do my best on the comp day.
you guys can't make me do everything.
so what if i'm the 2nd last important person on the team?
i still have a say in things.

but you guys just don't want to hear me.

i seriously hate you guys now.
people aren't always what you think they are.
i'm not always the quiet girl who does stuff slowly and imperfectly.
i'm just not cut-out for FA.
i'm not all classical music cos i was in choir while you guys were in the "cool" ccas.
so what if you were in "cool" ccas?
you still ended up in SJ the so called "loser" cca in dhs didn't ya?

i can only take so much.
even the most patient person will have anger outbreaks too.
now is my cry for you guys to shut the fuck up and look at what other ppl can do and you can't.

what we could have been, 9:06 PM.
Friday, November 16, 2007

ok.
now i feel damn pissed.
i mean,
HOW COME MY YOUNGER SIBLINGS GET EVERYTHING I WANT SO MANY YEARS BEFORE ME?
hmph.
my parents are BIASED.

I HAVE PROVE:

#1 - THE MP3
my bro got a mp3 when he's 5;
my sis gets a mp3 when she's 9;
i got mine when i was 12.

#2 - THE CLOTHES
my bro has like 2 drawer full of clothes when he's 5;
my sis has that when she's 6;
and i get that only when i'm 9.

#3 - THE HANDPHONE
my bro gets a hp when he's 5;
my sis when she's 9;
i get mine when i'm 12.
AND I HAD TO GET 250+ FOR PSLE TO GET IT. I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO CHOOSE.
and they didn't do anything and got to choose.

#4 - THE FANCY & EX PENS
my bro gets to buy expensive pens;
my sis gets to buy expensive pens;
i get to buy expensive pens,
but i have to pay by myself while my parents pay for them.

#5 - THE GOOD RESULT REWARDS
my sis gets a $100+ bike when she got into the best class in her sch again in p3.
i got another chicky club membership (it costs only $10) when i got into the best class again in p3 =.=

#6 - THE GOOD RESULT REWARDS 2
my sis gets my dad's laptop for getting into the best class again in p4;
i got another chicky club membership when i got into the best class in p4.

#7 - THE CONTINUATION OF #6
AND MY SIS WAS THE 39TH OUT OF THE 42 PPL IN HER CLASS!
and i was in the top 15 in the p3.
raaah.

#8 - THE ALLOWANCE MATTER
my mum said that she will give my sis $60/wk if she gets into dhs.
AND I ONLY GOT $50.
and she'll get to change her phone.

#9 - THE MY-OWN-ROOM MATTER
my sis has her own room when she was 7
I ONLY GOT MY ROOM WHEN I WAS 9!!!!!

#10 - THE MY-ROOM-ISN'T-TIDY MATTER
my sis room isn't tidy; she leaves her stuff everywhere; her study desk isn't in her room, so her room isn't as squished as mine; AND SHE DOESN'T GET NAGGED FOR NOT TIDYING IT.
and i get nagged every single day.




so yea. 10 big reasons why my parents are BIASED.
it's like so freaking unfair.
I HAVE TO SAVE UP FOR MY OWN LAPTOP WHILE MY SIS GETS ONE JUST FOR GETTING THE THIRD FROM THE BACK OF A CLASS OF 42 PPL.
like raaaaaaaaaaaaah.
and the laptop is like $1000+?
and not that i mind that much abt having to save up for my own laptop,
BUT MY MUM WON'T EVEN GET ME A $600 BASS.
or even a $314 one for that matter. i found a cheaper bass.
LIKE UNFAIRNESS.
and my relatives (except my uncle) all also biased one.
angbao money they always get more than me D:
hmph.
i will show them i am capable of saving up for that tablet pc within the next year.
though it probably means no more movies, shopping and fancy pens DD:

i hate them.
sry ppl. i'll miss going out with you guys :((

AND I SUDDENLY RMB ONE MORE UNFAIRNESS:
MY MUM SAID THAT IF MY DAD DIDN'T GIVE MY SIS THE LAPTOP, HE'LL GIVE IT TO MY BRO.

eff.

what we could have been, 8:05 PM.

ok.
now i feel damn pissed.
i mean,
HOW COME MY YOUNGER SIBLINGS GET EVERYTHING I WANT SO MANY YEARS BEFORE ME?
hmph.
my parents are BIASED.

I HAVE PROVE:

#1 - THE MP3
my bro got a mp3 when he's 5;
my sis gets a mp3 when she's 9;
i got mine when i was 12.

#2 - THE CLOTHES
my bro has like 2 drawer full of clothes when he's 5;
my sis has that when she's 6;
and i get that only when i'm 9.

#3 - THE HANDPHONE
my bro gets a hp when he's 5;
my sis when she's 9;
i get mine when i'm 12.
AND I HAD TO GET 250+ FOR PSLE TO GET IT. I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO CHOOSE.
and they didn't do anything and got to choose.

#4 - THE FANCY & EX PENS
my bro gets to buy expensive pens;
my sis gets to buy expensive pens;
i get to buy expensive pens,
but i have to pay by myself while my parents pay for them.

#5 - THE GOOD RESULT REWARDS
my sis gets a $100+ bike when she got into the best class in her sch again in p3.
i got another chicky club membership (it costs only $10) when i got into the best class again in p3 =.=

#6 - THE GOOD RESULT REWARDS 2
my sis gets my dad's laptop for getting into the best class again in p4;
i got another chicky club membership when i got into the best class in p4.

#7 - THE CONTINUATION OF #6
AND MY SIS WAS THE 39TH OUT OF THE 42 PPL IN HER CLASS!
and i was in the top 15 in the p3.
raaah.

#8 - THE ALLOWANCE MATTER
my mum said that she will give my sis $60/wk if she gets into dhs.
AND I ONLY GOT $50.
and she'll get to change her phone.

#9 - THE MY-OWN-ROOM MATTER
my sis has her own room when she was 7
I ONLY GOT MY ROOM WHEN I WAS 9!!!!!

#10 - THE MY-ROOM-ISN'T-TIDY MATTER
my sis room isn't tidy; she leaves her stuff everywhere; her study desk isn't in her room, so her room isn't as squished as mine; AND SHE DOESN'T GET NAGGED FOR NOT TIDYING IT.
and i get nagged every single day.




so yea. 10 big reasons why my parents are BIASED.
it's like so freaking unfair.
I HAVE TO SAVE UP FOR MY OWN LAPTOP WHILE MY SIS GETS ONE JUST FOR GETTING THE THIRD FROM THE BACK OF A CLASS OF 42 PPL.
like raaaaaaaaaaaaah.
and the laptop is like $1000+?
and not that i mind that much abt having to save up for my own laptop,
BUT MY MUM WON'T EVEN GET ME A $600 BASS.
or even a $314 one for that matter. i found a cheaper bass.
LIKE UNFAIRNESS.
and my relatives (except my uncle) all also biased one.
angbao money they always get more than me D:
hmph.
i will show them i am capable of saving up for that tablet pc within the next year.
though it probably means no more movies, shopping and fancy pens DD:

i hate them.
sry ppl. i'll miss going out with you guys :((

AND I SUDDENLY RMB ONE MORE UNFAIRNESS:
MY MUM SAID THAT IF MY DAD DIDN'T GIVE MY SIS THE LAPTOP, HE'LL GIVE IT TO MY BRO.

eff.

what we could have been, 8:05 PM.

blah.
my sis getting my dad's laptop.
lol.
saving up for my own.
gaaaaaaaah.
unfairness.

what we could have been, 4:56 PM.

blah.
my sis getting my dad's laptop.
lol.
saving up for my own.
gaaaaaaaah.
unfairness.

what we could have been, 4:56 PM.

sian.
and sick.
and dun feel like studying.
damnit.

what we could have been, 3:18 PM.

sian.
and sick.
and dun feel like studying.
damnit.

what we could have been, 3:18 PM.
Thursday, November 15, 2007

Ripped from Pearl :X



Basics

Name: Christine

Age: 13

Bday: 181094

Current Location: home

Current Mood: bored



Favorites

Flower: sunflowers; roses :D

Color: Black

Resturaunt: Swensens :D

Shop: HMV; Kinokuniya :]

Animal: cats; bats; etc.

Drink: Canned Milo



This or That

Summer or Winter: Winter

Shoes or Purse: Shoes

Jeans or Skirts: Jeans

Showers or Baths: Baths

Rich or Famous: 50-50?

Diamonds or Pearls: Diamonds. more valuable XD

Nsync or Backstreet Boys: backstreet boys

Yoga or Sports: Sports

Ocean or Pool: Oceans

Pink or Blue: Pink

White or Black: Black

Real tan or Tanning beds: real tan

Preppy or Gothic: Preppy

Eyeliner or Mascara: Eyeliner

Lipgloss or Lipstick: Lipgloss



Boys!

Relationships or Flings:: Relationships.

Whats more important looks or personality: Personality

Crush?: Yeah

Does he know you like him: yea.

Do you believe in soulmates: totally.

Do you like romantic guys: hell yea.

Flowers or candy?: candy... and flowers XDXD

Has any guy ever cheated on you: yea.

Have you ever cheated: yea.

If so why: revenge :) serious.

Sweetest thing a guy's ever done for you: errm. i dunno. lol.



Friends

Who's your best friend: eh. got alot. but best best fren should be xl (sry ppl. but he's done more than you guys ever know :X)

Do you tell him/her everything: almost.

Would you do anything for him/her: depends.

Can you be yourself infront of your girls: Yea.

Do you spend lots of time shopping with them: i spend more time shopping with dunmanians than 6a-ians :X

Is it better to have lots of buddies or one or two best friends: bffs.

Have You Ever Cried in school: Yes. lotsa times.

Laughed so hard you peed: eh. no.

Seen your best friend naked: hell no. based on above, my bff's a guy =.=

Taken a shower with someone: no.

Been drunk: yes. at a wedding. i love champagne.

Smoked: no

Cried on someones shoulder: yes.

Let someone cry on your shoulder: no.

Used the bathroom in front of a friend: no.

Do You Smoke: no

Do Drugs: no

Drink: no

Cry often: yes.

Change in front of your friends: No

Talk about private things with friends: depends on who.

what we could have been, 5:47 PM.

Ripped from Pearl :X



Basics

Name: Christine

Age: 13

Bday: 181094

Current Location: home

Current Mood: bored



Favorites

Flower: sunflowers; roses :D

Color: Black

Resturaunt: Swensens :D

Shop: HMV; Kinokuniya :]

Animal: cats; bats; etc.

Drink: Canned Milo



This or That

Summer or Winter: Winter

Shoes or Purse: Shoes

Jeans or Skirts: Jeans

Showers or Baths: Baths

Rich or Famous: 50-50?

Diamonds or Pearls: Diamonds. more valuable XD

Nsync or Backstreet Boys: backstreet boys

Yoga or Sports: Sports

Ocean or Pool: Oceans

Pink or Blue: Pink

White or Black: Black

Real tan or Tanning beds: real tan

Preppy or Gothic: Preppy

Eyeliner or Mascara: Eyeliner

Lipgloss or Lipstick: Lipgloss



Boys!

Relationships or Flings:: Relationships.

Whats more important looks or personality: Personality

Crush?: Yeah

Does he know you like him: yea.

Do you believe in soulmates: totally.

Do you like romantic guys: hell yea.

Flowers or candy?: candy... and flowers XDXD

Has any guy ever cheated on you: yea.

Have you ever cheated: yea.

If so why: revenge :) serious.

Sweetest thing a guy's ever done for you: errm. i dunno. lol.



Friends

Who's your best friend: eh. got alot. but best best fren should be xl (sry ppl. but he's done more than you guys ever know :X)

Do you tell him/her everything: almost.

Would you do anything for him/her: depends.

Can you be yourself infront of your girls: Yea.

Do you spend lots of time shopping with them: i spend more time shopping with dunmanians than 6a-ians :X

Is it better to have lots of buddies or one or two best friends: bffs.

Have You Ever Cried in school: Yes. lotsa times.

Laughed so hard you peed: eh. no.

Seen your best friend naked: hell no. based on above, my bff's a guy =.=

Taken a shower with someone: no.

Been drunk: yes. at a wedding. i love champagne.

Smoked: no

Cried on someones shoulder: yes.

Let someone cry on your shoulder: no.

Used the bathroom in front of a friend: no.

Do You Smoke: no

Do Drugs: no

Drink: no

Cry often: yes.

Change in front of your friends: No

Talk about private things with friends: depends on who.

what we could have been, 5:47 PM.
Monday, November 12, 2007

I AM PROUD OF MYSELF :D
lol.
spent most of today making this skin as perfect as possible :DD
haha.
ok.
feeling damn high now,
no more emoness.
and yea.
I LOVE THIS SKIN :DDD

what we could have been, 7:33 PM.

I AM PROUD OF MYSELF :D
lol.
spent most of today making this skin as perfect as possible :DD
haha.
ok.
feeling damn high now,
no more emoness.
and yea.
I LOVE THIS SKIN :DDD

what we could have been, 7:33 PM.
Saturday, November 10, 2007

not emo anymore.
and i love the new pic that i made with photoshop.
so far 3 ppl have seen it :D
lol.
i dunno why,
but going to church cheers me up ALOT.
like i can forget all my troubles there.
i love saturdays.

what we could have been, 9:58 PM.

not emo anymore.
and i love the new pic that i made with photoshop.
so far 3 ppl have seen it :D
lol.
i dunno why,
but going to church cheers me up ALOT.
like i can forget all my troubles there.
i love saturdays.

what we could have been, 9:58 PM.
Friday, November 9, 2007

feeling emo again.
my two besties immigrating to usa.
and i'm not emo cos they're going and i'm not,
but cos i might never see them ever again.
why doesn't my mum support what i want to do.
i mean, i understand why she doesn't allow me to go to usa,
cos i'm still damn young then go there nobody take care of me.
but why doesn't she let me learn the bass?
why can't i do stuff that i really want,
while my sibs can?
it's like unfair.
my sis can go for her piano concerts that cost alot,
and all i want is to go to the MCR concert that costs $95.
and she doesn't allow it.
it's like she treats me like an outsider at home.
i dunno.
maybe i'm saying that cos i'm emo now,
maybe it's true...

i really dun want them to go to usa...
if they go,
there won't be anyone else for me to confide to.
no one else that knows me in and out.
(dun think sick)
there won't be anyone for me to go out with when i'm pissed with dunmanians.
no one that can make me happy in a moment...
blah.
i just cried again.

what we could have been, 9:41 PM.

feeling emo again.
my two besties immigrating to usa.
and i'm not emo cos they're going and i'm not,
but cos i might never see them ever again.
why doesn't my mum support what i want to do.
i mean, i understand why she doesn't allow me to go to usa,
cos i'm still damn young then go there nobody take care of me.
but why doesn't she let me learn the bass?
why can't i do stuff that i really want,
while my sibs can?
it's like unfair.
my sis can go for her piano concerts that cost alot,
and all i want is to go to the MCR concert that costs $95.
and she doesn't allow it.
it's like she treats me like an outsider at home.
i dunno.
maybe i'm saying that cos i'm emo now,
maybe it's true...

i really dun want them to go to usa...
if they go,
there won't be anyone else for me to confide to.
no one else that knows me in and out.
(dun think sick)
there won't be anyone for me to go out with when i'm pissed with dunmanians.
no one that can make me happy in a moment...
blah.
i just cried again.

what we could have been, 9:41 PM.

just realised an error in the quiz i did abt who smsed me last and blah blah blah.
cos i ripped it from pearl's blog :X
lol.
heck abt it.
terrorism sucks...

what we could have been, 8:59 PM.

just realised an error in the quiz i did abt who smsed me last and blah blah blah.
cos i ripped it from pearl's blog :X
lol.
heck abt it.
terrorism sucks...

what we could have been, 8:59 PM.
Thursday, November 8, 2007

currently emo.
was researching for information on wars and terrorism for a story for CAP.
was inspired by Where is the Love by BEP and just felt like writing something about wars and such to let ppl know more abt how lucky we are just to be able to have three decent meals in a day, to be able to do stuff that we want to, blah blah blah.
i dunno.
i just feel like crying now,
knowing that there are ppl suffering from hunger and such while i'm sitting in a comfortable home, blogging abt how they are suffering.
it's like. i want to help but i can't.
gah.
i dunno what to say now.
really at a lost for words.
so yea.
pls, if you guys know of any reference stuff that contains insights abt wars and terrorism and whatever, leave a tag or sth. cos i need to know more in order to write a proper story.
thanks in advance.

~the world will never be a perfect place...

what we could have been, 9:58 PM.

currently emo.
was researching for information on wars and terrorism for a story for CAP.
was inspired by Where is the Love by BEP and just felt like writing something about wars and such to let ppl know more abt how lucky we are just to be able to have three decent meals in a day, to be able to do stuff that we want to, blah blah blah.
i dunno.
i just feel like crying now,
knowing that there are ppl suffering from hunger and such while i'm sitting in a comfortable home, blogging abt how they are suffering.
it's like. i want to help but i can't.
gah.
i dunno what to say now.
really at a lost for words.
so yea.
pls, if you guys know of any reference stuff that contains insights abt wars and terrorism and whatever, leave a tag or sth. cos i need to know more in order to write a proper story.
thanks in advance.

~the world will never be a perfect place...

what we could have been, 9:58 PM.

so bored i did 3 quizzes today XD
ok.
went bowling.
lost all 7 rounds.
nearly broke my little finger;
got big bruise on my thumb.
blah.
tmr got SJ.
sian.
gonna eat dinner,
then come back and play photoshop
XD

what we could have been, 7:07 PM.

so bored i did 3 quizzes today XD
ok.
went bowling.
lost all 7 rounds.
nearly broke my little finger;
got big bruise on my thumb.
blah.
tmr got SJ.
sian.
gonna eat dinner,
then come back and play photoshop
XD

what we could have been, 7:07 PM.

From Pearl again.

A: Fun to be around with
B: Loves to make people laugh
C: Really fall in love with
D: Is a great dancer
E: Have beautiful eyes
F: People get wild and crazy to adore you
G: Dont like people to tell you what to do
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: Love to laugh
J: Easy to have fun with
K: Really silly
L: One of the most romantic people
M: Make people laugh
N: Good bf/gf
O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: Can kick your ass
S: Lives life for fun
T: Great Kisser
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Drop dead gorgeous
Y: Loved by everybody
Z: Lives life for fun

My Name!
C: Really fall in love with
-you can really fall in love with me :D
H: Easy to fall in love with -oh yeah. i'm so lovable XD
R: Can kick your ass -yep. and i'd love to XDXD
I: Love to laugh -yes. i got good sense of humor
S: Lives life for fun -sometimes.
T: Great Kisser -dunno. nvr kissed before.
I: Love to laugh -repeated.
N: Good bf/gf -yea yea. ask my ex-es what they think XD
E: Have beautiful eyes -and i wear glasses. =.=

what we could have been, 7:02 PM.

From Pearl again.

A: Fun to be around with
B: Loves to make people laugh
C: Really fall in love with
D: Is a great dancer
E: Have beautiful eyes
F: People get wild and crazy to adore you
G: Dont like people to tell you what to do
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: Love to laugh
J: Easy to have fun with
K: Really silly
L: One of the most romantic people
M: Make people laugh
N: Good bf/gf
O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: Can kick your ass
S: Lives life for fun
T: Great Kisser
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Drop dead gorgeous
Y: Loved by everybody
Z: Lives life for fun

My Name!
C: Really fall in love with
-you can really fall in love with me :D
H: Easy to fall in love with -oh yeah. i'm so lovable XD
R: Can kick your ass -yep. and i'd love to XDXD
I: Love to laugh -yes. i got good sense of humor
S: Lives life for fun -sometimes.
T: Great Kisser -dunno. nvr kissed before.
I: Love to laugh -repeated.
N: Good bf/gf -yea yea. ask my ex-es what they think XD
E: Have beautiful eyes -and i wear glasses. =.=

what we could have been, 7:02 PM.

From Pearl :D

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAMES STARTS WITH A 'S':
Shakespeare. exclassmate. not william XD

Q:4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
Christine

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED:
From christine again regarding the chaletQ: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?: a little. haha

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
abit wavy.

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
dunno. i wanna go to mcr concert D:

Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
myself :D ok lah... errm. thinking. still myself. XD

Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY ALOT?
blah/shit/eff/damn...

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
pearl from my ice blend XD

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
Dance Dance remix, my bro. cos he was asking what song is that

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
yes.

Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE, DONNIEDARKO?
no. what's tt?

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
for dragonflies during my last trip to the sci centre XD

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
yea. i think so.

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, ''I LOVE YOU'' AND MEANT IT?
nearly 2yrs ago

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
showering/eating dinner

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
yea. loads.

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
yes.

Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
my bro

Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
duh

Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
okay. but my room's abit of a mess now.

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
long long time ago.

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
F04 chalet XD

Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
nearly, but no

Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
TRANSFORMERS. i <33>

Q: WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST?
myself, God, another person XD

Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY????
maybe.

LAST
1) person you saw: my family?
2)talked to on the phone: mum
3) hugged: my stuffed dog XD
4)person you texted: pearl. abt today's bowling

TODAY
1) date: 08 NOV 2007
2) plans: not much. practice SJ for training tmr =.=
3) dislikes about tomorrow: SJ training. i wanna sleep XD
1) missing someone: yeahh
2) mood: ok-ish. could be better

TRUE OR FALSE
I am a morning person: FALSE
I am a perfectionist: FALSE
I am an only child: FALSE
I am currently in my pajamas: FALSE
I am online 24/7: FALSE
I am very shy around the opposite gender: FALSE
I can be paranoid: FALSE
I currently regret something that I have done: TRUE
I enjoy talking on the phone: Depends.
I have a lot to learn: TRUE
I have a secret: TRUE. alot in fact...

5 people to do this: Amanda, jia ying, Kimberly(6A'07), XL, Val
cos pearl has already done it XD

what we could have been, 6:41 PM.

From Pearl :D

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAMES STARTS WITH A 'S':
Shakespeare. exclassmate. not william XD

Q:4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
Christine

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED:
From christine again regarding the chaletQ: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?: a little. haha

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
abit wavy.

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
dunno. i wanna go to mcr concert D:

Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
myself :D ok lah... errm. thinking. still myself. XD

Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY ALOT?
blah/shit/eff/damn...

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
pearl from my ice blend XD

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
Dance Dance remix, my bro. cos he was asking what song is that

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
yes.

Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE, DONNIEDARKO?
no. what's tt?

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
for dragonflies during my last trip to the sci centre XD

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
yea. i think so.

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, ''I LOVE YOU'' AND MEANT IT?
nearly 2yrs ago

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
showering/eating dinner

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
yea. loads.

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
yes.

Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
my bro

Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
duh

Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
okay. but my room's abit of a mess now.

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
long long time ago.

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
F04 chalet XD

Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
nearly, but no

Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
TRANSFORMERS. i <33>

Q: WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST?
myself, God, another person XD

Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY????
maybe.

LAST
1) person you saw: my family?
2)talked to on the phone: mum
3) hugged: my stuffed dog XD
4)person you texted: pearl. abt today's bowling

TODAY
1) date: 08 NOV 2007
2) plans: not much. practice SJ for training tmr =.=
3) dislikes about tomorrow: SJ training. i wanna sleep XD
1) missing someone: yeahh
2) mood: ok-ish. could be better

TRUE OR FALSE
I am a morning person: FALSE
I am a perfectionist: FALSE
I am an only child: FALSE
I am currently in my pajamas: FALSE
I am online 24/7: FALSE
I am very shy around the opposite gender: FALSE
I can be paranoid: FALSE
I currently regret something that I have done: TRUE
I enjoy talking on the phone: Depends.
I have a lot to learn: TRUE
I have a secret: TRUE. alot in fact...

5 people to do this: Amanda, jia ying, Kimberly(6A'07), XL, Val
cos pearl has already done it XD

what we could have been, 6:41 PM.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY
Welcome to the black parade/MCR
- is that supposed to be ok?

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Dirty Little Secret/All-American Rejects
- o.O I'm secretive?

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Famous Last Words/MCR
- i like a dying person. just great.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Dance Inside/P!ATD
- i feel like dancing in my mind XD

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
My Happy Ending/Avril Lavigne
- my life's purpose is to find my happy ending. :D

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I constantly thank God for Esteban/P!ATD
- what's esteban?

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Sending postcards from a plane crash (wish you were here)/FOB
- they wish i'm with them :DD

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Addicted to me/TC5
- they're addicted to me :D oh yeah.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Grand Theft Auttumn/Where is your boy?/FOB
- i think abt where my boy is =.=

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Stab my Back/All-American Rejects
- NO. I DO NOT THINK THAT THEY'll STAB MY BACK!!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
XO/FOB
- hugs&kisses. what do you expect for someone i like XD

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
The pros and cons of breathing/FOB
- errm...

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Roses/DUNNO WHO
- flowers for me?? XD

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I've got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth up/FOB
- i should shut up?!?!

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
The carpal tunnel of love/FOB
- WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. lol.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Thnks fr the mmrs/FOB
- oh yeah. i'm memorable :D btr rmb me XD

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
1985/bowling for soup
- my hobby is history o.O

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Spongebob Squarepants theme song
- i fear spongebob? rofl.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Build God then we'll talk/P!ATD
-yep. build God then i'll tell you my secret :D

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Happy Birthday/TC5
- i'll have a happy b'day :DDD

what we could have been, 6:08 PM.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY
Welcome to the black parade/MCR
- is that supposed to be ok?

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Dirty Little Secret/All-American Rejects
- o.O I'm secretive?

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Famous Last Words/MCR
- i like a dying person. just great.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Dance Inside/P!ATD
- i feel like dancing in my mind XD

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
My Happy Ending/Avril Lavigne
- my life's purpose is to find my happy ending. :D

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I constantly thank God for Esteban/P!ATD
- what's esteban?

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Sending postcards from a plane crash (wish you were here)/FOB
- they wish i'm with them :DD

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Addicted to me/TC5
- they're addicted to me :D oh yeah.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Grand Theft Auttumn/Where is your boy?/FOB
- i think abt where my boy is =.=

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Stab my Back/All-American Rejects
- NO. I DO NOT THINK THAT THEY'll STAB MY BACK!!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
XO/FOB
- hugs&kisses. what do you expect for someone i like XD

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
The pros and cons of breathing/FOB
- errm...

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Roses/DUNNO WHO
- flowers for me?? XD

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I've got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth up/FOB
- i should shut up?!?!

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
The carpal tunnel of love/FOB
- WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. lol.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Thnks fr the mmrs/FOB
- oh yeah. i'm memorable :D btr rmb me XD

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
1985/bowling for soup
- my hobby is history o.O

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Spongebob Squarepants theme song
- i fear spongebob? rofl.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Build God then we'll talk/P!ATD
-yep. build God then i'll tell you my secret :D

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Happy Birthday/TC5
- i'll have a happy b'day :DDD

what we could have been, 6:08 PM.

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CHRISTINE(:
Edward Cullen
turns older on 18 October
and is currently studying at DHS :D
Child of God
& ♥s her CG (LOL of WEFC)

Loves & Hates
LOVES:
HIM
The Twilight Series
Edward Cullen
Rocking xD
Going to the theatres
Shopping
Being alone in my room
Reading
My Clique♥
My hamsters :D
My Squad(:
House of the Dead 4 X:
My imagination;
My secret world ♥

HATES:
Being interupted when reading
Being lied to
Betrayals
Bitches
The darkness that looms at the edge of happiness
Wishlist
(click for details)

BOOKS
Twilight♥ (click)
Twilight Posters
Twilight DVD
Twilight Soundtrack
Twilight Hardcovers
Twilight Illustrate Movie Companion
Twilight Calender
Twilight the Official Guide
Twilight shirts
Twilight Jewellery
Twilight trading cards
(etcetc. LOL)

The Spiderwick Chronicles :D
Wuthering Heights (by Emily Bronte)
The Host (Stephenie Meyer)
Harry Potter series xD
Shopaholic series
Princess Diaries series
The Diary of Georgia Nicolson
Artermis Fowl
Alex Rider series
and alot more x)

MUSIC
Blue acoustic guitar
Jonas Brothers albums :D - ty to my siblings :D
FOB albums x)
Albums by the artists I like
(lol can't be bothered to list them all)
Headphones
CD player for my room
Piano albums

TECHNOLOGY
SONY T300
Apple Red NanoChromatic :D
Philips HP4698
Red/Pink Sony Vaio
Adobe CS7
House of the Dead 4 machine xD
CHALET <3

OTHERS
Go to Ivy League
Go to:
Europe :D
America
Forks, USA xD
Wherever I want :D
Redo my room(:
Grow in my faith in God
More clothes, bags and shoes!
Get triple science and DHRP xP

My very own Edward Cullen/Jacob Black
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Exits
(click headings)

Twilight (♥)

Deborah :D

6A'06!
XiaoHan
Jia Yuan
KaiLun
Valerie
Casmelin
Shakespeare
Ming Zhen
Ping Lou
-Pei Wei
Vivien
Amos
Huiling
Yanni
XinLei

6A'07(:
-6A'06'07
Eugene
Grace Tan
Jie Hao
Kimberly
Ming Jun
Nidesh
Xin Yun
Lynette
Yu Wen
Jie Yi
Firdaus
Joei
Song Jia; snr

CRESMIC! :D
Pearl
Amanda
Sophin
Zhen Ting
Jeng Teng
Ang Shuang
Jia Min
Dionis
Wen Lin
Vivian
YunEn
JiaQi
Junjie
Cresmic!

STD2'08♥
♥STD2'08
Daniel
HaiHua
Haonan
Samantha
Tabitha
Yiren


STD1'08 :D
JiaYi
Sheryl
Vivien
SiYao
Jaime
RuiQi
WingKei

STD3'08 x)
Jade
Jia Min
Jing Qing
Li Wen
Lydia
Mae
Qi Ya
Wen Zhong
Ya Xin
Yi Xi
Zhi Wei


Seniors O:
Candice
Cindy
Eve
Kai Ming
Kok Swee
Tzu Hsiang
Xun Lin


yearONES(:
oneALTAIR
oneCLEON
oneDARIA
oneHELEA
oneIDYLLA
oneJENO

yearTWOS((:
twoANTLIA
twoBELTRIX
twoDELPHINUS
twoENIVE
twoFORNAX
twoGEMMA
twoHYDRUS
twoIZARE
twoJUBIX
twoKEZO
twoLECTRA

yearTHREES (((:
threeANZIO
threeBONDIA
threeCADMUS
threeDEYO
threeELLIOT
threeFAHRION
threeGARCIA
threeHOTSPUR
threeIOWA
threeJARVIX
threeKISKA
threeLAFFEY

Others <3
Blogger
Youtube
PATD
Fall Out Boy <33
Google
iwebmusic
CBOX
Hotmail
Blogskins
Overcast Kids.com
The Click Five <33
Pete Wentz
FOE
MetroLyrics
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