Tuesday, November 20, 2007
gah.
i dunno why but i feel so left out again.
like we're supposed to be a SQUAD.
but in the end you leave out some ppl.
maybe cos you dun like them;
or maybe they just aren't like you and you can't change them.
everyone is equal.
Jesus said love your neighbour as yourself
so why must we exclude ppl?
we're squadmates.
we're more than neighbours.
we're friends,
or even better,
we're a family.
but you guys have forgotten that.
we're all humans.
we make mistakes.
no one can be all RIGHT and no WRONG except God.
and we aren't God.
and we aren't the same.
SURE.
you guys can be much better than me in FA and stuff.
but these are external skills.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ARE BETTER?
I can revise and improve myself can't I?
SO WHAT IF I CAN'T ABSORB EVERYTHING SGT SAYS?
at least i rmb those that I absorb longer.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT STUFF AND I DON'T?
everyone has their good points. you have yours and i have mine.
we're different human beings.
WHY SHOULD I GET SCOLDED FOR STUFF I DIDN'T DO?
i didn't say i'll not revise my FA. i didn't say i'll not do my best on the comp day.
you guys can't make me do everything.
so what if i'm the 2nd last important person on the team?
i still have a say in things.
but you guys just don't want to hear me.
i seriously hate you guys now.
people aren't always what you think they are.
i'm not always the quiet girl who does stuff slowly and imperfectly.
i'm just not cut-out for FA.
i'm not all classical music cos i was in choir while you guys were in the "cool" ccas.
so what if you were in "cool" ccas?
you still ended up in SJ the so called "loser" cca in dhs didn't ya?
i can only take so much.
even the most patient person will have anger outbreaks too.
now is my cry for you guys to shut the fuck up and look at what other ppl can do and you can't.
i dunno why but i feel so left out again.
like we're supposed to be a SQUAD.
but in the end you leave out some ppl.
maybe cos you dun like them;
or maybe they just aren't like you and you can't change them.
everyone is equal.
Jesus said love your neighbour as yourself
so why must we exclude ppl?
we're squadmates.
we're more than neighbours.
we're friends,
or even better,
we're a family.
but you guys have forgotten that.
we're all humans.
we make mistakes.
no one can be all RIGHT and no WRONG except God.
and we aren't God.
and we aren't the same.
SURE.
you guys can be much better than me in FA and stuff.
but these are external skills.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ARE BETTER?
I can revise and improve myself can't I?
SO WHAT IF I CAN'T ABSORB EVERYTHING SGT SAYS?
at least i rmb those that I absorb longer.
SO WHAT IF YOU GUYS ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT STUFF AND I DON'T?
everyone has their good points. you have yours and i have mine.
we're different human beings.
WHY SHOULD I GET SCOLDED FOR STUFF I DIDN'T DO?
i didn't say i'll not revise my FA. i didn't say i'll not do my best on the comp day.
you guys can't make me do everything.
so what if i'm the 2nd last important person on the team?
i still have a say in things.
but you guys just don't want to hear me.
i seriously hate you guys now.
people aren't always what you think they are.
i'm not always the quiet girl who does stuff slowly and imperfectly.
i'm just not cut-out for FA.
i'm not all classical music cos i was in choir while you guys were in the "cool" ccas.
so what if you were in "cool" ccas?
you still ended up in SJ the so called "loser" cca in dhs didn't ya?
i can only take so much.
even the most patient person will have anger outbreaks too.
now is my cry for you guys to shut the fuck up and look at what other ppl can do and you can't.
what we could have been, 9:06 PM.
