Friday, September 19, 2008
i just feel compelled to blog.
about love, i guess.
it's like this four lettered word which everyone wants,
one way or another - family, friends, soulmate, physical.
and it's like, now,
at this period of time when all my friends are teens,
it just makes it easier to 'fall-in-love'.
but, what is love?
it's easy to say that you're in love,
but how do you know whether it is indeed love?
sure, all the teenage ego hormones would be going:
"i'm sure it's love, what else can it be? i mean LOOK at him, blahblahblah..."
so if it's mostly hormones talking,
it ain't really love,
is it?
then there's the people who want to be in love-
with this hot guy/that cute guy;
or maybe just a plain guy that catches your eye.
it's that "i-love-him-but-he-doesnt-love-me" kinda thing.
but if he aint in love with you,
it's just a crush isnt it?
and there's family love.
it's like the hardest to talk about when you're a teen.
the hormones are now screaming "rebel",
and when you get a thrashing or whatever,
you'll be thinking "WHY CAN'T THEY JUST UNDERSTAND ME FOR ONCE?"
and then when you actually sit down and think through it,
you'll see that they're doing it because they love you.
and i dunno.
it just makes me sad to actually know that i did hurt my mum saying some stuff,
and that i actually neglect my dad's feelings alot.
ok.
let's just leave family love at this ._.
and friendship love.
it's like.
you can't tel who are your true friends now,
because you can't even tell who you are now.
and i dunno,
i just find myself thinking,
which people do i think are my friends;
the kind that i would still talk to after we graduate and stuff.
and then i realise nothing it confirmed.
because after this teenage phase,
we would never be the same people again.
//okay.
im emoing now.
byebye.
about love, i guess.
it's like this four lettered word which everyone wants,
one way or another - family, friends, soulmate, physical.
and it's like, now,
at this period of time when all my friends are teens,
it just makes it easier to 'fall-in-love'.
but, what is love?
it's easy to say that you're in love,
but how do you know whether it is indeed love?
sure, all the teenage ego hormones would be going:
"i'm sure it's love, what else can it be? i mean LOOK at him, blahblahblah..."
so if it's mostly hormones talking,
it ain't really love,
is it?
then there's the people who want to be in love-
with this hot guy/that cute guy;
or maybe just a plain guy that catches your eye.
it's that "i-love-him-but-he-doesnt-love-me" kinda thing.
but if he aint in love with you,
it's just a crush isnt it?
and there's family love.
it's like the hardest to talk about when you're a teen.
the hormones are now screaming "rebel",
and when you get a thrashing or whatever,
you'll be thinking "WHY CAN'T THEY JUST UNDERSTAND ME FOR ONCE?"
and then when you actually sit down and think through it,
you'll see that they're doing it because they love you.
and i dunno.
it just makes me sad to actually know that i did hurt my mum saying some stuff,
and that i actually neglect my dad's feelings alot.
ok.
let's just leave family love at this ._.
and friendship love.
it's like.
you can't tel who are your true friends now,
because you can't even tell who you are now.
and i dunno,
i just find myself thinking,
which people do i think are my friends;
the kind that i would still talk to after we graduate and stuff.
and then i realise nothing it confirmed.
because after this teenage phase,
we would never be the same people again.
//okay.
im emoing now.
byebye.
what we could have been, 8:36 PM.
